(read without stopping for breath)

gazing into space
waiting for time
to pass by
quickly
the feeling of
anxiety from this
long frustrating wait
kills
the inside of
me is slowly
bursting out of
nervousness
visions of the
future creep into
my head and
poisons
the dream strove
for is drifting
away from any
reach
the sky grows
dim with my
thundering heart just
waiting
endlessly thinking of
consequences and choices
that must be
done
and over the
fear there lies
the courage to
act
out of uneasiness
comes millions of
thoughts streaming in
wildly
wishing that soon
it would finally
arrive and come
fast
the news of
rejection or acceptance
will determine my
forever
for the grade
that would not
come tears me
apart!

~Summer 2000, college

in dedication to all students, as the school year draws closer to the end